Where’s Kai?


I know that some of you have probably wondered, “where is Kai?”  I’m here. Somewhat in varying degrees of dimensions of what ‘here’ is. I haven’t been on Facebook a lot. Here and there I’ll post but I am in a state of learning and have pulled myself away to get the best education that I possibly can. I’m doing my internal work still, but on a different level.  I haven’t written much because as soon as I think I know a thing I am then charged to bring that level of knowledge, school of thought, or idea even higher. I realize how much I know nothing. How does one speak on things unknown to its fullest. Even now I feel like I’m babbling. I have been in a class of in-depth innerstanding since February of this year. I had planned from October to December of 2017 to do some major things in 2018 and those plans were laid to rest or pushed aside to become more aware of self and Spirituality. I am compelled to dive deeper and go within even more than I ever have.

On Instagram (which I know sounds crazy) but by regranning or sharing most of what I am learning and gathering from the posts of some enlightened souls, I’ve found a sort of refuge. These souls, are relevant to my own innerstanding and have delved into the depths of the mysticisms of their own psyche and schools of thought to find truth by experience. As I type, I find myself forming thoughts about the conversations that I’ve had on Conversations With Kai Mann these past two years and come to the conclusion that now, those conversations do not even begin to scratch the surface of where I am to go now. They were stepping stones to the reality of transformation but transformation as we know it has many levels and its time to take my quest even further. So I sit, get quiet and learn.

I perceive that learning is ever present, it is never ‘all’ or ‘done’ it lasts throughout eternity as we go from one transition or incarnation to another. I find lessons in everything that I do because I look for the lesson in everything that I do. Even in the mundane.  It is all school for thought to be taught from different angles and perspectives.

I’ve stopped most of what I was doing so that I could focus. Outside of a couple of clients I’ve taken life back old school. I knew that I needed a fresh start so I threw away the old canvas, well not really threw it away, I just put it down in the basement so to speak and bought a new canvas.  I’m still thinking if I should throw the old one away but I have started completely over.  I wanted my outer work to reflect  my inner work. I innerstand that I have got to get my house in order. Now earlier, I said that I took it back old school. I’m going to share my truths with you so that you can fully understand because bits and pieces of the truth will only complicate and confuse the lessons.

In February, I delved even deeper into working on my work. I knew that meant that I needed to work on my thinking. The way I have thought over the years have changed me in ways that I don’t recognize or care to take into my future. My inner world had begun to show outwardly and what I saw, I wasn’t too fond of.  I had built walls up from past hurts. I wasn’t that deeply rooted in love spiritually person I had once been. More aloof than ever, energy fully drained and not as focused in areas where I needed to be. Some of my thoughts were immature and unfinished, and I walked around using those thoughts as foundations for major decisions. I decided that I needed to do some things differently and on the next blog post I’ll begin to share exactly what those were.

Why am I’m writing these blogs? Well, I’ve decided to use my blog as an open journal to speak in truth about my transformational journey.  Join me if you’d like.

flyers;

Waldo-Regranned from Eternal Skies

Consciousness- Regranned from Raise The Vibe Tribe

I am A Seeker


Just a few facts about the nature of who I am so that you may better understand me, my posts, my actions, or lack of action in some cases.
I am a seeker. I seek truth and a deeper meaning to life through spirituality. I don’t mind telling my truth and I am anything but superficial about it. If I am wrong, I never have a problem saying that I am, apologizing and trying to effect change to move forward from that wrong. I can be a loner at times as I truly prefer deeper conversation and stimulation, however that does not mean that I don’t like to laugh. As a matter of fact, I can be really silly at times. I don’t mind confrontation as I know it to be a way of growth and change if we are to do so especially when done correctly. If you’ve been a part of my social sphere for at least 3 or more years you’ll notice that I have been in a constant state of change and transformation. I am committed to a life of transformation; dying, resurrecting, and regenerating. It is a part of who I am as a person, I came into this world this way and I tend to at times be obsessive about that change and transformation especially in times of feeling stuck. So, balance is always important to me. My posts somewhat strategic in nature are always designed to inspire thought and self love, more so to get us to think more about our own power and nature and truly love who we are. I also try to inspire others to keep going. It is my way of having a closer connection with others who are seeking the same but may need some confirmation, support or empowerment. There are parts of me that some people may not like as I can come of self centered but I am not. (I used to come off as self-righteous and I was.) However, I love people and I’m most interested in their growth. Sometimes who I am can come off as cold or emotionless because I am severely focused and at times that leaves no room for much else but that which I am focused upon. It is never my intention to make anyone else feel like they don’t matter but I border on obsessive when I am trying to accomplish something. On the flip side of things I am not afraid of the darker side of life. I understand the yin and yang of life, so I have the ability to examine and explore those parts of me, others, and different forms of spirituality to get a better understanding of life. (This part of me is newly recognized. I used to be afraid, something that had to do with religion) I understand that everything in life is not always good or bad in which the law of duality explains. And that life isn’t always on the up, as the law of rhythm states that the pendulum swings both ways. We must be able to deal with both sides of the swing. But, I have always had a great need to work, walk, and delve into the things of the spirit that represent consciousness to a higher level. I am always looking to learn more. I seek knowledge wherever I can find it to help me tap into my higher self because I believe there is always more. I constantly challenge myself and others to look at ourselves in a way that encourages and promote self love, self growth and self-evolution whatever that may mean for each of us. For me this has caused me to transform at different periods during life, leaving some to know a different Kai that may no longer exist. But my posts pretty much say it all. If you’d like to know more I’m always available but not through inbox, messenger or DM’s. I’m not hard to find though. #transformation#transmutation #inspiration #seeker #seekerforlife#truth #lawofduality #lawofrhythm #universallaws#selflove #selfgrowth #selfevolution

Dr Shawn -Conversations With Kai Mann S2:E2


Have you ever wondered why when Mr. or Ms. Right comes along you still treat them like Mr. or Ms. Wrong? On Wednesday, August 9th we had one of the most honest and authentic conversations with Dr. Shawn a licensed professional counselor and psychologist. Dr. Shawn’s candid conversation about life and love opens the Conversations With Kai Mann show up for another level of thought. Join us for heartfelt conversation with Dr. Shawn.

Dr. Shawn
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Time Sensitive Goals, Dreams, and Purpose


time-sensitive

adj
1. (Chemistry) physically changing as time passes
2. only relevant or applicable for a short period of time

My belief is that my purpose is time sensitive such as everyone’s is. All of us only get a certain amount of time on the earth to do what it is that we have been sent here to do. For me, about 20 years ago I had the opportunity to explore, live life from a different perspective, gain insight & knowledge, suffer, and even sacrifice. That period is now over and the time now is to “Get to WORK”. From a Divine mindset the purpose in which we have been given has always been sensitive to time, but the time prior to “Go time” is known as a time of spiritual, physical, and mental maturation and preparation. A time to gain knowledge of the purpose and what strengths and tools we have been given in order to manifest that purpose. Some of us have been allotted more time to be still and listen as others have been appointed less. That time frame is based upon assignment and individual capacity. 20 years seems like a long time but in that time wisdom was being stored from all aspects as well as time given in to presupposed distractions, an unwillingness to learn from certain lessons, and a repeat of circumstances because of all of it. At this stage of life I understand the need to be severely focused, to keep moving, and to not hold on to the fear of what others think. Even in the event of mistakes, the intent is to learn from them, use them as necessary, and continue to grow.

The other day I watched the #HBO series “The Defiant Ones” and felt a sense of confirmation when I heard #jimmyiovine say “That’s why those horses have blinders on. And that’s what people should have when you’re running after something, you should not look left or right, what does this person think, what does that person think, NO, GO!”

How about you, do you think life is time-sensitive?

#life
#lifepreparation
#timesensitive
#goals
#purpose
#dreams
#growthmindset
#spiritualmaturation
#mentalpreparation

One Day The Universe Will Offer You A New Path


“There will come a day when the Universe will offer you a new path. An uncharted land to explore, where no maps have ever gone before. One day, the Universe will gently place you in a space that you will not find the familiarity of comfort. A place that takes you to the edge of yourself, escorting you to the point of yet becoming another. One day you will be encouraged with a gentle nudge where no words will utter “come this way” but the opening, and warmth of yielding to something new deeply shifts your spirit to the unconventional. A place where tradition has no authority, and visceral reflection freely contemplates the very heart and mind of God. One day, you will either answer “yes” with forward motion into something so profoundly new or walk away in fear from labored truths, honesty, and authenticity full of light, life, and love. What will be your answer today, will you step forward or move back?” — Kai Mann

Get Still Or Be Made To


When it’s time to move forward and you won’t move your feet they will be moved for you.
In 2004, probably sooner but I wasn’t paying much attention, a series of events would happen to turn my life around. In 2005 I heard very clearly, leave this situation alone and do something different but sadly I did not. Because I would not adhere to the voice inside I would be made to sit down and take more than just a moment to redirect my life, but I would be made to take a physically, mentally, and spiritually painful hard look at my life. Looking myself in the mirror was difficult but necessary. Seeing some of the decisions I had made at face value made me grieve for what could’ve been. The decision to place misdirected energy into things and people used to distract me from my purpose was disheartening. A very unyielding time in my life served up an order of “Make life-altering Decisions or be stuck in a cycle of unproductive fruit” kinda like that fig tree Jesus cursed. I decided to change and give energy to things that matter and would help me to move in life abundantly and progressively. If you never take the time to get still and not only evaluate where you’ve been but also where you’re going; you’ll be made to.
#selflove #selfgrowth #selfdevelopment #growth #growthmindset #selfawareness

Know Thyself


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Four or Five years ago, I had someone tell me that they thought I was aloof. I agreed with them and added that life had given me a unique skill; the skill to detach from things quickly. I could’ve at that time took what that person said as negative but I knew who I was then and I most definitely know who I am now. Life has taught me plenty of lessons but the first lesson at two years old was that people leave and everyone around will compensate in some way for that loss. The way that you compensate will either propel you into success or hurl you into defeat. The difference is if you look at what happened ‘to’ you instead of what happened ‘for’ you.

What happened for me when I was two years old would define me for the rest of my life. We can’t change what happens to us but we can decide how we will let it work for us. I consider being aloof a gift. I take pride in the fact that I can distance myself from situations and sometimes people if need be. If I had not learned that skill early on I would not have been able to accomplish all that I have thus far. Can you imagine stopping for everything that happens ‘to’ you instead of ‘for’ you? When you stop for things ‘for’ you, you understand there is a lesson in it so you look for the lesson to help propel you further in life. You use ‘it’ instead of letting it use ‘you’.

Imagine listening to every insult someone says about you or waiting for the other shoe to drop? How much can you accomplish if you’re stopping to defend yourself and your actions. I find it hard to lose ground when you keep moving. Remember, it’s hard to hit a moving target.

Often when people get distracted it’s because they are paying attention to things that don’t really matter. When they try to get back into focus they find it hard because there has been damage done. Credibility loss, lack of maturity shown, or some other flaw has been revealed. It’s okay to reveal your flaws but its best once you have overcome them.

It probably sounds cold but in the grand scheme of all things being accomplished you must learn who you are and use it to your advantage. Never let what someone says about you define you in a negative way. You decide how you will be defined and walk in it confidently.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Set You Free


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Today, I sat and thought about my life and the many experiences I’ve had. I reflected on how much I’ve grown from the dark places and not so comfortable moments in my life.
From the time I was about 14 or 15 until my early 30’s I battled with suicide; especially in my teens. I think about how much I have accomplished in these last 6 years and if I had’ve died I would’ve never known the life I could’ve had. I am thankful that God kept me. #dontdietoosoon #dontkillyourpromise #truthfultuesday

InkMann Press–The Big Leap


InkMann Press—The Big Leap

Dare to declare who you are. It is not far from the shores of silence to the boundaries of speech. The path is not long, but the way is deep. You must not only walk there, you must be prepared to leap.

Hildegard Von Bingen

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This quote resonates soul deep within me. About a year and a half ago I began to feel like I had this hole inside of me that was profound but that there was this boulder that encompassed the width of it. I couldn’t figure out how to remove the boulder. I knew there was something significant that I had to do and I had to do it now. For if I did not, I was to remain forever stuck. I began to look at my life from the view in which I could see it and although I couldn’t see much, I knew that there was more that life had to offer. Even still there were some effects that I had to remove. It wasn’t as if the life I had was bad. It was good: but I knew that the door had opened to something great. And, if I didn’t step outside that door I would risk everything that I had done up until that point. I decided to leap but before I could, I had to prepare myself first.

When I was in high school I ran track and one of my categories was the long jump. I know that the technique when doing the long jump, the jump itself is only part of the process. So, in preparing to take that leap I knew there were some issues I had to clean up to maximize my distance based on my ability to increase my takeoff speed. I knew the distance between where I was and where I was going was great and I needed the gain of momentum to ensure that I would clear the landing and make it to the other side.

The process or preparation for the jump has been long and arduous. It has been one of soul searching, clearing away of old patterns, and strengthening new ones. The level I was on seem to pale in comparison to where I was going but God had given me a guide. My guide would help me see the path when I couldn’t see where to start. She gave me techniques and drilled me with every ounce of fervor in her being. She coached me into submission and at times I would not like her for it but I knew that I had an obligation to my life to step forward. Often it would give the impression that the runway had moved making it hard to know where to takeoff. I surmised that I was still not ready. I didn’t realize how unprepared I had been for the jump. The exercises were long and grueling but necessary. For some time, it would seem like my feet wanted to move but it was clear they were not ready. The hardest observation in life is wanting to be some place other than where you are but know that you lack the character, stamina, and experience to be anywhere else.

It’s been a year and half and all of the training, technique and preparation is paying off. The distance between where I am and where I want to be is closer than ever. There are still some circuits and drills I am still running but I feel better about the leap and am sure that I can make it.

Conversations With Kai Mann


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Bio
As a writer and conversationalist she is both positive and purposeful. Her keen ability to provoke thought, trigger change and enlighten the lives of others has catapulted her to a literary and media success. Whether it’s in the form of a blog post or article, Facebook status or tweet, internet talk show or webseries, Kai Mann uses her platform to empower and educate followers around the world about the nature of self love, self growth, and the importance of self equity that leads to authentic change and infinite transformation.