Where’s Kai?


I know that some of you have probably wondered, “where is Kai?”  I’m here. Somewhat in varying degrees of dimensions of what ‘here’ is. I haven’t been on Facebook a lot. Here and there I’ll post but I am in a state of learning and have pulled myself away to get the best education that I possibly can. I’m doing my internal work still, but on a different level.  I haven’t written much because as soon as I think I know a thing I am then charged to bring that level of knowledge, school of thought, or idea even higher. I realize how much I know nothing. How does one speak on things unknown to its fullest. Even now I feel like I’m babbling. I have been in a class of in-depth innerstanding since February of this year. I had planned from October to December of 2017 to do some major things in 2018 and those plans were laid to rest or pushed aside to become more aware of self and Spirituality. I am compelled to dive deeper and go within even more than I ever have.

On Instagram (which I know sounds crazy) but by regranning or sharing most of what I am learning and gathering from the posts of some enlightened souls, I’ve found a sort of refuge. These souls, are relevant to my own innerstanding and have delved into the depths of the mysticisms of their own psyche and schools of thought to find truth by experience. As I type, I find myself forming thoughts about the conversations that I’ve had on Conversations With Kai Mann these past two years and come to the conclusion that now, those conversations do not even begin to scratch the surface of where I am to go now. They were stepping stones to the reality of transformation but transformation as we know it has many levels and its time to take my quest even further. So I sit, get quiet and learn.

I perceive that learning is ever present, it is never ‘all’ or ‘done’ it lasts throughout eternity as we go from one transition or incarnation to another. I find lessons in everything that I do because I look for the lesson in everything that I do. Even in the mundane.  It is all school for thought to be taught from different angles and perspectives.

I’ve stopped most of what I was doing so that I could focus. Outside of a couple of clients I’ve taken life back old school. I knew that I needed a fresh start so I threw away the old canvas, well not really threw it away, I just put it down in the basement so to speak and bought a new canvas.  I’m still thinking if I should throw the old one away but I have started completely over.  I wanted my outer work to reflect  my inner work. I innerstand that I have got to get my house in order. Now earlier, I said that I took it back old school. I’m going to share my truths with you so that you can fully understand because bits and pieces of the truth will only complicate and confuse the lessons.

In February, I delved even deeper into working on my work. I knew that meant that I needed to work on my thinking. The way I have thought over the years have changed me in ways that I don’t recognize or care to take into my future. My inner world had begun to show outwardly and what I saw, I wasn’t too fond of.  I had built walls up from past hurts. I wasn’t that deeply rooted in love spiritually person I had once been. More aloof than ever, energy fully drained and not as focused in areas where I needed to be. Some of my thoughts were immature and unfinished, and I walked around using those thoughts as foundations for major decisions. I decided that I needed to do some things differently and on the next blog post I’ll begin to share exactly what those were.

Why am I’m writing these blogs? Well, I’ve decided to use my blog as an open journal to speak in truth about my transformational journey.  Join me if you’d like.

flyers;

Waldo-Regranned from Eternal Skies

Consciousness- Regranned from Raise The Vibe Tribe

Don’t Forget to Stand Out


“Today, be mindful to stand out.”

Sometimes it may be difficult to stand out because of the light that shines on us. Sometimes that light shines so bright that it shows our flaws, imperfections, mistakes, and our failures. This can make it hard to stand up in our truth because of how feel about those things. When we begin to understand that sometimes our lives are the lessons for others to see we can understand the light and therefore not be afraid of it. #letyourlightshine

InkMann Press Series- Movin’ On Up!


InkMann Press Series- Movin’ On Up!

“The destination isn’t necessarily determined by where you are, but more so what you’re doing while you’re there; and what your plan is to move forward.”

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We all have those moments when our minds are made ALL the way up, and we come to grips with the fact that we have to GO forward, work inward, and “move on up”. Sometimes after a burst of Inspiration we believe that we’re ready for a change or an upgrade so to speak. Often we believe we’ve mastered a thing and we feel that we can handle going to the next level or dimension.

Believing it’s time to move on we set our sights to do so. We step out on faith and begin to get our balance when we notice a shift. Just as we get our footing we’re challenged with something that we were sure that we had conquered. We thought ourselves skilled in that particular area, but we quickly realize that we’re not. We’ve got two choices and those choices define our character and everything else about us. What we do next is the most important move we’ll ever make.

The most important moves we make are affected by the chances we take and the decisions we make. You can either stay stuck or you can recognize that you still have work to do and seek to do it so that you get better. What you do at this point defines the movement you’ll make, if any. Every so often I have the opportunity to talk with a woman, who I believe is the wisest woman I know. I’m not just talking people that I personally know either. Anyway, I digress. We were talking about movement. She suggested that movement can also be linear and people not realize it. They are doing events, speaking engagements, but everything that they do is just like the last thing with no movement into another level or dimension. The reality is that they think ALL movement is consistent with growth and that cannot be farthest from the truth. When movement is linear, there is no real growth or success to be had, although they are doing everything to go higher, they’re not moving at all. You see, we can be in a particular geographical location working feverishly on our passions and not be able to move past the city limits. To be able to make the most impactful moves that will lead us outside of our normal borders we have to work from the inside out.

In life we are often challenged and given the chance to take full ownership of our lives and master ourselves. It’s not easy either. This step is not taken for the faint at heart. Deciding to go to a new dimension has to be more than just an idea. You have to be ready to execute on a level higher than you’ve ever been. Think of levels like escalators to Dimensions. The way you think on each level helps you to move to the next level. When moving to a dimension you have to take everything you’ve learned on each of those levels to take you into another atmosphere. Inability to think past your immediate surrounding will only yield linear movement and not dimensional movement. Dimensional movement does not imply a shift but a total transformation.

A lot of times we say that we’re ready to do the work but when it comes down to it, we allow ourselves to get distracted. Sometimes, we believe that it’s too much work so we procrastinate or never finish what we start. Saying you’re ready to do the work but not be willing to change will make your job that much harder. Not because you’re not ready but because you’re unwilling to change. When you want to be the best you that you can be, your actions have to match your words.

During the process we come across the work and sometimes seeing how much work it costs, we begin to faint. Sometimes it’s not the requirement of the work but the act of being responsible for the work. It’s different when someone else is responsible and we’re not held liable. Unconsciously some of us think that if we focus on everyone else it exonerates us from being ready. But when we step one leg at a time into our big girl and big boy pants we tap into the power that we have to move forward successfully. When we are willing to get our feelings hurt, die to ego, let our lights shine, and be ALL that we have ever wanted to be we surpass levels and move into dimensions.

Speaking of dimensions, I’ve heard Oprah say that nothing is ever wasted and as I look back over my life I realize that she is absolutely right. Oprah has moved into many levels and dimensions in her lifetime because she has used everything that she has ever learned.

I too have begun to use everything that I have ever learned without leaving any stones unturned. Even the things I thought were useless have been used in some way. When it was time to move closer to my dreams I added a coach to my life. My coach holds me accountable to do only those things that involve dimensional movement. I have to be honest and say, at first I didn’t enjoy the coaching experience because my ego was in the way. I had a problem with being told what to do when I had been doing it for forty-seven years. She even tap danced on my nerves a couple times, but it took me a minute to understand that she was trying to help me and not hurt me. Even still, it was me who said that I wanted to move dimensionally without full knowledge of what that meant. Full understanding teaches that Dimensional movement allows you to hear the truth, learn the lesson, and execute.

When I used the lessons that I learned I began to feel that I was accomplishing things even when the situation looked like I might not. I learned to see everything as a win because I gained knowledge. Now that I consistently and continually cultivate the lessons that I learn, I find it easier to move on up.

Like That


I think they tell their

stories

the best way

they know

how

Rappers

tell the truth

of what

they see

if they haven’t

done it

themselves

but none of us are

at the same place

at the same

time

Do you remember you were

there

maybe not just like that

for your life

but like that

for

his.

~Kaiology

#Kaism #Kai2pointO

How We Really Feel


I think that too often we won’t tell people

how we really feel

because we’re afraid to hurt their feelings.

We don’t give people enough credit

and we say how much a person can handle

It’s not up to us

Tell your truth

people are strong enough

to handle it

And if it does hurt their feelings

guess what?

they’ll get over it

and might even later tell you

“Thank you”

for sharing that with me.

And if their feelings aren’t hurt

you’ll get over it

when you have enough strength

and you’re ready

to make a change

and to do something

different

you welcome it

because you know

that when this comes

it’s just a test

and you determine the outcome.

 

That’s Hard


You ever hear someone say something that’s so messed up

that all you can say is “Whew!”

with your shoulders up to your ears

because you were so shocked

I don’t know anybody

who works for McDonald’s

or Burger King

But I know one at Wendy’s

And I know it must be hard

to do that job if you’re grown

I did it for about a month

When I was sixteen

and thought to myself

“Oh! I can’t do this!”

It takes a special person

to do that

especially if that’s the only choice

they have for whatever reason

or mistake they made

to land them there

That’s hard…

What Else Would We Do


We can want it that way

but what else would we do with that

opposition is a good thing

it challenges you to do it better

find another way

and just

pretty much grow

It expands you

We would all be little people if we didn’t run into opposition

every once in a while

I wonder why I’m thinking about this

is it that because I’m not

up against it right now

I’m preparing myself for it

because we know it’ll come

and we have to be ready

or is it that I should

just not be careful

and let whatever happens?

Not!

No, I won’t

Tried that!

that doesn’t work

let’s think some things through

so we’ll have better outcomes

sometimes no matter how much

you’ll be prepared for it

it won’t

pretty much stop you

on the one day

you don’t have your pride

and dignity with you

when your resistance is low

and you might not be

as positive as you’ve been

preparing to be

you better take a breath

start pausing before you answer questions

not because you want to be sure

to say what they want to hear

but what you’re really feeling

in a way that’s not offensive

but truth

that no one can deny

 

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I’m Just Saying


So, we’re always told to be ourselves but it’s crazy that most of us are so afraid of being just that. Here goes. I just wanted to kind of feel bad for writing the article I just wrote for examiner because it is so biased.  But I feel like Man, forget it. Somebody’s gotta say something. Are we really just gonna keep walking around and nobody’s gonna say nothing? For real. I need to be honest and just tell the truth. Something that I wish someone would’ve told me. I would’ve been a little bit more informed.  It wouldn’t have took me this long to get it. And I could’ve made better choices. Do you know what I mean?

Check out the Examiner article here