Reflection (2017) Part 2


2017 was like that mother that beat you into submission, but then sat you down to explain ‘why’. Once you understood why it was whipping you into shape, you knew that it wanted you to climb higher into your next level of consciousness.

It was the year that demanded you learn. Learn more about yourself and the world around you. This past year taught me many lessons that I am proud and blessed to have endured, been challenged by, and brought through. It gives me deep satisfaction to say that 2017 gave me pivotal points in my life, and acted as healing in some areas and made me keenly aware of others that needed fixing and or changing. I think the major thing it taught me was that I had assigned tasks to myself that were never my responsibility.

In some spaces I had to forgive myself for not knowing the value of my resources, time and energy. I had to lay hold to forgiveness of myself for sacrificing my worth for some people who didn’t know their own. I had charged some clients the bare minimum in order to obtain their business and had to pay for some of their services out of my own pocket. I took the time to forgive myself for working in collaborative situations where I did 90-95% of the work. Also, I forgave myself for working with clients who weren’t ready for the next level where I or someone on my team had to drag them along kicking, screaming or complaining about why they had to do the work in the first place, or why they had to pay for it, and sometimes doing the work for them. I learned that I had said “You be the gift and let us do the work” too many times. I learned that before you judge someone else, you had to look at yourself first to see if you do the same thing, something similar, or are responsible for why it’s happening.

2017 made me realize just how many tools and resources that we had been given to help us navigate our existence in this world.  Some of or either all of the resources that we were given throughout time many of us have denied ourselves access to because of old wives’ tales, myths, religious, or familial beliefs. Some of these beliefs go back so far that the reason is no longer valid or never was, but we still hold those reasons to be truths in our daily practice still today. Looking back, I realize ignorance and inexperience played a major part. Not that many of us wanted to be ignorant but for most of us it was our upbringing where we were always told how and what to think and that we shouldn’t question things. So, for most of our lives we walk blindly and do as we were told.

Now, as some of us are awakening, we find the reasons no longer valid and that the “Why” is not more important than the “how”. How do we begin to move forward in the newness of our day-to-day? How do we take those lessons we’ve learned and start to utilize some of the tools and resources that we now find that we have?

At the moment we contemplate the tools and resources that we find that we have, we recognize that they are more like inclusive road maps that we have been given access to. I use the term “inclusive” because many of them come from the inside. The tools we have gives us the ability to read the maps, the resources help us to take the journey within the map. The lessons keep us on the right roads on the map. I start to see that we are the map. The thoughts or mindset our tools. The resources our bodies which make manifested actions from our thoughts or mindset as well as those that help us to manifest the experiences on our journey.

The one thing 2017 made clear for me was to seek knowledge. That knowledge expanded our thoughts and mindset. And that knowledge proved itself one thing over time, and that there is nothing new under the sun and some of our teachers of this knowledge have been life bringers, some guides, some healers, some gurus, some mystics, some prophets, some messengers, and such but we’ve refused to obtain much of this knowledge mostly because of their source. We don’t realize that we all come from ‘the’ Source and have been the source. I don’t think we come to understand that each of us are the Source; a form of it anyway. Every single one of us holds a part of the Source within us, the Source is expressed through us and we all play a part of one another’s existence making us REsources. Knowledge comes from Source and reaches us through other sources to complete the knowledge of Source.

It’s like being lost and handed a map, a GPS locator, some rope, a hammer, or whatever and not using it because it came from Walmart or CVS and not Macy’s or Nordstroms. My hopes, prayers, and meditations are upon us utilizing ALL of our tools, resources, sources and the Source to move into our higher selves as a universal collective.

As with any thing expressed or experienced, I pray for many things going into 2018.  But mostly, I pray that my children are aware of the knowledge within and that they go to Source and when Source sends to them other sources that they utilize that resource. I pray that they are better people and parents than I was. I pray that the things that I learned in life have been a resource to them and that I shared enough with them to the extent that they may not have to experience any of those things; but if they do, I pray that they know exactly what to do. I hope that the example that I currently set for them makes them want to expand their level of consciousness every day and that they let nothing stop them from achieving all that they came here to do. I pray that my suns know that they are KINGS even when they aren’t acting KINGLY. I pray that they know they are loved without conditions and that I know them to be GREAT even when they are not.  I pray that they know that their actions do not define them. I pray that my suns know that no matter who they are that I will always love them. I pray that they know that Source loves them more than I ever could. I pray that when they fall they know how to get up. I pray that as the going gets tough that they know that they are tougher.  I pray that every day that they wake that they’ll try again.

This is what 2017 taught me, gave me, healed me from and allowed me to experience. Now, let’s move into 2018 with gratitude and gratefulness!

 

 

 

 

 

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Time Sensitive Goals, Dreams, and Purpose


time-sensitive

adj
1. (Chemistry) physically changing as time passes
2. only relevant or applicable for a short period of time

My belief is that my purpose is time sensitive such as everyone’s is. All of us only get a certain amount of time on the earth to do what it is that we have been sent here to do. For me, about 20 years ago I had the opportunity to explore, live life from a different perspective, gain insight & knowledge, suffer, and even sacrifice. That period is now over and the time now is to “Get to WORK”. From a Divine mindset the purpose in which we have been given has always been sensitive to time, but the time prior to “Go time” is known as a time of spiritual, physical, and mental maturation and preparation. A time to gain knowledge of the purpose and what strengths and tools we have been given in order to manifest that purpose. Some of us have been allotted more time to be still and listen as others have been appointed less. That time frame is based upon assignment and individual capacity. 20 years seems like a long time but in that time wisdom was being stored from all aspects as well as time given in to presupposed distractions, an unwillingness to learn from certain lessons, and a repeat of circumstances because of all of it. At this stage of life I understand the need to be severely focused, to keep moving, and to not hold on to the fear of what others think. Even in the event of mistakes, the intent is to learn from them, use them as necessary, and continue to grow.

The other day I watched the #HBO series “The Defiant Ones” and felt a sense of confirmation when I heard #jimmyiovine say “That’s why those horses have blinders on. And that’s what people should have when you’re running after something, you should not look left or right, what does this person think, what does that person think, NO, GO!”

How about you, do you think life is time-sensitive?

#life
#lifepreparation
#timesensitive
#goals
#purpose
#dreams
#growthmindset
#spiritualmaturation
#mentalpreparation

InkMann Press Series–Slow Jams


 

InkMann Press–Slow Jams

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Along the journey we will experience periods where things seem to be at a standstill.  This is a time when it seems as if something physical is in the way of us moving further into our purpose. Some of us experience this period as a blockage or obstacle and we often feel stuck or get distracted. Even though we have this need to move to the other side of this experience, we sometimes lack the fortitude to do so. As days go by we slowly allow the blockage or obstacle to slow down our momentum which ultimately causes a jam in our growth process.

 

There are two ways of looking at a “standstill” moment that happens on a path of the journey. One way is to look at it through eyes that lack vision. Eyes that have no vision see this period as a stale mate thinking they haven’t won but neither has the other side. They get distracted and move on to something else momentary. The other half will feel cheated and stay stuck in the moment: never moving any further because they are afraid that what they want is not on the other side. When we’re able to comprehend what this period is for we’ll understand that all we believe, dream, and hope for is attainable and we’ll use this period like a training camp for the Best of the best. There are those of us who are willing to do this because we know this time is limited and that we must use it to get better. The main goal for anyone during this period is to know every tool in their own arsenal. They know that they need to know how those tools work and when they work best.

 

This period is the period of all periods. It helps you to get all the answers to all the questions you’ve ever asked and just had to know. You get the time to read up on everything that will help you to grow. You get to mull over the lessons that you are learning, as well as learn how to use what you’re learning for the next whatever on your journey. You get to plan how you’ll use the lesson during your next situation. You get to prepare yourself for the vision that you’ve created for yourself. You get to plan it out and watch it happen as it unfolds. This period is so much more for the person has dares to have a vision for it.

 

It’s not that those lacking vision can’t gain some insight or have an “Aha” type moment and begin to move past the slow jam and understand what this moment is for. Everything is possible when we work to find out more during this period. A standstill offers a time to work through issues that could potentially cause problems and hinder us from moving forward.  These hindrances can begin to build jams or cause obstacles in our life when we refuse to move forward psychologically. Seeing little happening at this time is often due to our inability to gain the full understanding what to do with the time we have.

 

When we are in the space where nothing seems to be happening little do we know that’s when everything is happening. This area of time is fertile ground because whatever we plant or water during this season is what we produce when it’s time to harvest. Those that use this time wisely know that during this hour, the time becomes now to hone our skills and master our craft. No one who goes into battle practices during the battle.

 

Many people get fooled into thinking that nothing is happening during this period when this period is proven to be the most crucial. It is the period where we either make it or break it. We have all been given a certain amount of time with a specific goal of mastering ourselves.  If you allow yourself to get distracted you risk losing your place in life and have to go back to the beginning. Although this period can get a little lonely, the alone time done right will ensure that when you come out you’ll be the best you that you’ve ever been. And because you used your time wisely you’ll be that much more of a light to the people you want to help most. Most people can’t get past the point of not being able to sit still and work. In fantasy the dream seems closer but in reality it takes work. Have the courage to only dream for you but to go after everything else as well.

 

Catapulting your dreams into reality comes when you dedicate yourself to working on those areas that stop you from being the person you want to be. That’s what you are doing when you say yes to life. Saying yes to life often means that you will say yes to the moments like standstills that might not feel like movement because they feel like work. Work was created to bring out the best in you so that you could walk in your gift with a level of confidence and pride. For most of us the goal is to be able to take care of ourselves and our families with our gift.

 

When you use the time allotted to master yourself, no one can beat you at being you. No one can do the things you do because you have mastered you. And no one else can master you without your permission.  Use your standstill moment to help you gain control of your under-developed areas. Be creative while standing still so that you cut out those habits that would hinder you from moving forward.

This is how you know


I almost feel threatened.

Some things a person does

who wants to be

someone’s friend

wouldn’t do

wouldn’t make you feel

like you can’t

trust them.

Watch what

people say to you

And how it

makes you feel

Your instincts are key

Trust them

God gave them to you to use

So you do have

the tools

He left you

with them.

Do you know

what they are

And

how to use them

We don’t

know who

we are

Life will come to do what it’s supposed to do


PhotoXpress: Sergey Galushko
PhotoXpress: Sergey Galushko

Today started out like any other day, until I did my normal routine of checking for reviews on my first novel.  It would happen at the very moment that my second novel is to come out that I would receive a very negative review. I had to laugh at myself because my first reaction was “Huh?” I thought maybe the reviewer had placed the wrong review on my book’s page.  Shocked by the review, I realized that it was real.  I sent the link to the three people who mattered most with regards to my book; my editor, my #1 fan, and my partner.  I decided in that moment that I was going to be okay and that this is something to be expected because everyone is not going to like everything. I had a good laugh about it and then asked myself “What are you going to do about it?” I told myself that I would press on and let it roll down my back just enough to keep me in check; to keep me motivated, to work harder, and to do better.

For the past two years, the Creator has been toughening my spirit so to speak. He has been preparing me for the trials that are going to come because I know that there will be many. He has been putting down in my spirit all of the necessary tools I’ll need to do my job. He has also been faithful to place the right people in my midst to help me to continue on. You see, I believe in my heart that I have a purpose as a messenger and I cannot let anything get in the way of doing that. There are going to be times that people may not agree with what I am doing or what I have to say but that doesn’t matter. What matters is that I say it.

One of the toughest things in life is to do what you believe that you are called to do in the face of opposition.  But the key is to not question yourself, but to move forward. There will be many obstacles but I know that I must remain calm, and know that life is coming to do exactly what it is supposed to do; challenge me.