Eclectic Thoughts


In order to get out alive

you have to have

something

spirit-filled

deep

inside

of

you

you have to open up

your soul

and let everything

out

even if you got a second

chance

would you want to take

it?

Don’t get me wrong

It’s not to say

that I don’t

love life

I do

but I don’t

want to keep

doing it over

I wonder what it was for him

all of us have it

but some of us

know how

to control

it

Those that hold on by a string

hold on a little bit longer

is all that I can

tell you

change the way

you think

no need to keep

getting the

same result

switch up

If I could help

someone

I will

Sometimes your soul

don’t want to

sometimes it’s hard

to tell if you

should

you want to hold on

just to see

but then

something

says

keep moving forward

you’ll get stuck

It’s a dilemma

because I don’t

always know

if it’s real

because if it ain’t

I gotta keep

moving ~ Eclectic Thoughts, Pen To Paper ~ A Walk Into Destiny © Kai Mann

#Kai2pointO

Too Much For You


Is this too much for you

have I

opened my soul

too much

that you

can’t bear it

I wonder how

many people

would just allow

you to be you

no matter

who you are

….free

that must be free

Not Everyone Can Go


I wish but deeply pray

that you could go with me on this journey

I don’t know if it is possible for you to ride with me

I know you’re not ready

I wish you were

I secretly pray that you were

But you can’t

You’re not ready to explore

Explore the depths of your own soul

You want to continue to look on the outside

For the light

The light that you already possess

You don’t want to look at your scars

And turn them into strength

You look at them as the flaws or weaknesses in you

Rather than look at how they make you strong

You play around with the truth

Told the same story so much

You believe it

I’m not asking you to pick at the scab

But to put a little ointment on it

So you can begin to heal

For real

Not the cover up that you place on top

And whenever asked

You get taken to a place where no one understands

Because you’re not ready

Ready to go on that journey

That journey to look deeper

To be deeper

To change your thoughts

You know that it can be lonely

But it’s necessary

You don’t want to open it

Peel back the layers so you can

Purify your soul

My Soul Smiles


Today I was given the opportunity to share my accomplishments, hopes, dreams, and latest endeavors with a co-worker. Much to her surprise she had no idea of all the things that I had done and still pray faithfully to do, in what she would call a short time. I shared with her that I felt like I am at the half way point in my life and if I didn’t do those things in which I dream of now, then when. I went on to tell her that my mother was diagnosed with pre-senile dementia when she was 53 years old that later developed into Alzheimer’s. Simply put, that is 10 years from now and if by some chance I should receive the same fate as my mother, I want to have had a life basically worth dying for. Although my mother would live for twenty plus years with Alzheimer’s I do know that in her short time here with us that she did whatever she wanted to do. She lived a full 53 years.  Her diagnosis would give me the fuel to seek out those things in life that I had been dreaming of since I could remember and on the eve of what would be her 77th birthday I get quiet to recognize my own life; where I’ve been and where I am going. Often I have thought that I too would live a short life as she did which in turn made me realize not only how precious life is but how we have to seek out our purpose in life and go for it, guns blazing.  Although it would seem sad that someone had to die so that I could live, I am reminded that it was not the first time.

I wouldn’t say that I’m living so that I could die; but when I’m gone I want to have accomplish more than I could have ever dreamed of. As for today I sit quiet and think of what I want to accomplish in the next ten years and my soul smiles.