InkMann Press–Paying Attention


Love, honor, and cherish the spaces that you find yourself in, for life can change rather quickly.–Kai Mann

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I have found myself in a space of take-it-all-in’edness. I know that’s not a word but it so describes the spirit I am in. I have been paying attention to what the Universe has given me privilege to partake in and to view from the seat of my own soul. Perceptions and perspectives have changed over the last twelve months allowing my spirit to open wide with transformative intentions. I would be lying if I said the entire twelve months I have gone willingly. You would have thought I would; I would’ve thought I would, but there were parts of me unwilling to open the eyes of my understanding to see past my own lids. Some things I fought against like a child holding on to its last days of childhood forbidding going into adulthood. That part of me has decreased today as the more adult me is able to talk the child into moving forward when the motion is necessary out of future pain or suffering.

 

You see, rarely do we understand that what we might feel now will not compare to what we’ll feel later if we do not move when the opportunity presents itself. If you’ve ever gotten the chance to live when others have not: or to witness life happen to someone else in a way that if misconstrued you’d get the rest of life  all wrong, then you knew that it was purpose. It was purpose that granted you access to see the view at the top of the mountain, to tell a story, to learn a lesson, or to help someone else. I thank God that I have been able to see and feel life from a different vantage point. A vantage point, that if I had not seen correctly, I would’ve missed the advantage.

 

For most of my life I hated to see people about to get into trouble, be in pain, or anything that could hurt them. I’d turn away. I couldn’t even watch a movie that I could feel the protagonist’s trouble before it happened and would get up to go do something so I wouldn’t have to watch that part of the movie. My DNA is programmed to want others to win and when it would look as if they weren’t I would turn my head away so as not to see them lose. One thing I had failed to realize was that I hated to see my own self lose. I’d turn my head away from me when I felt I was about to get into trouble, make a mistake, or be in pain just so I wouldn’t have to witness it.

 

Today what I have learned from that behavior was that the pre-warned feelings were giving me the opportunity to change course, correct my sail, or to just do something different. I hadn’t realized that my instincts were protecting me so I wouldn’t have to experience whatever trouble, mistake, or pain so drastically. Me diverting my attention or closing my eyes would cause the most intense pain because I’d still have to drive right through it even with eyes wide shut making the devastation much worse.

 

On a different street but in the same neighborhood I too realized that shying away from the experiences of others would leave me hallow. To live life as a shell of a person who lacked depth because she had denied herself the privilege of experiencing life through the eyes of another. I can’t say that it has been easy but the connections I have made just opening myself up to experiencing my own life, as well as the lives of others, has added value to my soul. No longer will I allow myself to miss out on the moments for fear that they may turn ugly, when all of life is so beautiful.

Queen For A Day


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Baby girl you deserve to be more than Queen for a day

You should be treated like royalty each and every day

There’s no need to accept loyalty on occasion

Or be treated like currency is your only persuasion

On a daily you should be honored and treated with respect

And not be hurt by the one who says your heart they’ll protect

You should be considered right after the Lord

And not kept dangling like a tag on a cord

You should be given flowers and candy more than one day of the year

And not treated like a court date stamped failure to appear

The man who deserves your heart will make the team

You’ll know him because he’ll walk like a King

He will love you with his whole heart and not take it lightly

He will make you feel secure by holding on to you tightly

He will try his best not to disappoint or break your heart

He’d rather disappoint himself or tear his own apart

He will consistently treat you like a Queen

And not talk down to you, cheat on you, or anything in between

Or every now and then do something nice to get you off of his back

Or to throw you off his trail so you won’t be on the attack

You can settle for less if that’s what you so choose

But know that it’s you who will ultimately lose

Why not be treated like more than a Queen for a day

By choosing a King who’ll honor and respect you everyday

What Are We Doing To One Another


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Sistahs where is the love, what are we doing to one another?

Spewing hurtful words and throwing out blanket statements mostly under cover

Looking each other in the eye and not speaking; just plain ole’ disrespect

I know you’re not security but it’s each other’s heart that you’ve got to protect

Loose lips quick to yell “I am a woman” but actions say “You’re a child”

Still being mean and hateful underneath a fake smile

Going hard on each other making it worse when other parties are involved

Taking murderous shots at one another’s lives like a mystery to be solved

Making grown up decisions with minds of an adolescent

Our age says “grown” but our motivation says “pubescent”

Hating on each other for things we are unwilling to do

Unyielding to bear each others cross or walk a mile in each other’s shoes

Stirring up pots with no spoon in hand to bear

Playing instigator because we don’t seem to care

Pitting one another against the other to get the action started

Not willing to be a Moses and remember why the Red Seas parted

Showing our young girls that it’s better to fight each other

Especially for your man or some piece of a brother

Instead of teaching when they fight they should be standing side by side

Standing up for new causes like that of sisterly pride

Teach them to love one another because we’re all that we’ve got

To support one another because each of us individually rocks

To honor one another because each of them hold the keys

That if they stuck together none of them would have any needs

Sistahs let’s find the love and stop doing bad things to one another

Let’s change the game and begin to be each other’s cover

#IAmMySistersKeeper