Reflection (2017) Part 2


2017 was like that mother that beat you into submission, but then sat you down to explain ‘why’. Once you understood why it was whipping you into shape, you knew that it wanted you to climb higher into your next level of consciousness.

It was the year that demanded you learn. Learn more about yourself and the world around you. This past year taught me many lessons that I am proud and blessed to have endured, been challenged by, and brought through. It gives me deep satisfaction to say that 2017 gave me pivotal points in my life, and acted as healing in some areas and made me keenly aware of others that needed fixing and or changing. I think the major thing it taught me was that I had assigned tasks to myself that were never my responsibility.

In some spaces I had to forgive myself for not knowing the value of my resources, time and energy. I had to lay hold to forgiveness of myself for sacrificing my worth for some people who didn’t know their own. I had charged some clients the bare minimum in order to obtain their business and had to pay for some of their services out of my own pocket. I took the time to forgive myself for working in collaborative situations where I did 90-95% of the work. Also, I forgave myself for working with clients who weren’t ready for the next level where I or someone on my team had to drag them along kicking, screaming or complaining about why they had to do the work in the first place, or why they had to pay for it, and sometimes doing the work for them. I learned that I had said “You be the gift and let us do the work” too many times. I learned that before you judge someone else, you had to look at yourself first to see if you do the same thing, something similar, or are responsible for why it’s happening.

2017 made me realize just how many tools and resources that we had been given to help us navigate our existence in this world.  Some of or either all of the resources that we were given throughout time many of us have denied ourselves access to because of old wives’ tales, myths, religious, or familial beliefs. Some of these beliefs go back so far that the reason is no longer valid or never was, but we still hold those reasons to be truths in our daily practice still today. Looking back, I realize ignorance and inexperience played a major part. Not that many of us wanted to be ignorant but for most of us it was our upbringing where we were always told how and what to think and that we shouldn’t question things. So, for most of our lives we walk blindly and do as we were told.

Now, as some of us are awakening, we find the reasons no longer valid and that the “Why” is not more important than the “how”. How do we begin to move forward in the newness of our day-to-day? How do we take those lessons we’ve learned and start to utilize some of the tools and resources that we now find that we have?

At the moment we contemplate the tools and resources that we find that we have, we recognize that they are more like inclusive road maps that we have been given access to. I use the term “inclusive” because many of them come from the inside. The tools we have gives us the ability to read the maps, the resources help us to take the journey within the map. The lessons keep us on the right roads on the map. I start to see that we are the map. The thoughts or mindset our tools. The resources our bodies which make manifested actions from our thoughts or mindset as well as those that help us to manifest the experiences on our journey.

The one thing 2017 made clear for me was to seek knowledge. That knowledge expanded our thoughts and mindset. And that knowledge proved itself one thing over time, and that there is nothing new under the sun and some of our teachers of this knowledge have been life bringers, some guides, some healers, some gurus, some mystics, some prophets, some messengers, and such but we’ve refused to obtain much of this knowledge mostly because of their source. We don’t realize that we all come from ‘the’ Source and have been the source. I don’t think we come to understand that each of us are the Source; a form of it anyway. Every single one of us holds a part of the Source within us, the Source is expressed through us and we all play a part of one another’s existence making us REsources. Knowledge comes from Source and reaches us through other sources to complete the knowledge of Source.

It’s like being lost and handed a map, a GPS locator, some rope, a hammer, or whatever and not using it because it came from Walmart or CVS and not Macy’s or Nordstroms. My hopes, prayers, and meditations are upon us utilizing ALL of our tools, resources, sources and the Source to move into our higher selves as a universal collective.

As with any thing expressed or experienced, I pray for many things going into 2018.  But mostly, I pray that my children are aware of the knowledge within and that they go to Source and when Source sends to them other sources that they utilize that resource. I pray that they are better people and parents than I was. I pray that the things that I learned in life have been a resource to them and that I shared enough with them to the extent that they may not have to experience any of those things; but if they do, I pray that they know exactly what to do. I hope that the example that I currently set for them makes them want to expand their level of consciousness every day and that they let nothing stop them from achieving all that they came here to do. I pray that my suns know that they are KINGS even when they aren’t acting KINGLY. I pray that they know they are loved without conditions and that I know them to be GREAT even when they are not.  I pray that they know that their actions do not define them. I pray that my suns know that no matter who they are that I will always love them. I pray that they know that Source loves them more than I ever could. I pray that when they fall they know how to get up. I pray that as the going gets tough that they know that they are tougher.  I pray that every day that they wake that they’ll try again.

This is what 2017 taught me, gave me, healed me from and allowed me to experience. Now, let’s move into 2018 with gratitude and gratefulness!

 

 

 

 

 

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Healing From The Past- Part 3


As I move deeper into this journey my passion to seek a higher me has escalated to deepening and widening my search. I have been meditating more, reading the Bible as well as different books , listening to YouTube videos on the law of attraction (Abraham-Hicks), and watching Documentaries about spirituality. I am determined to find a way to tap more into the inner me so that I may begin to live from a point of abundance. This is my nature and has always been a part of my life in some way, shape, or form. I am a seeker of self, and always willing to go higher, but this time it’s different.

There are 4 more days until my birthday and usually during this season I am contemplative as a practice. But what I have come to understand is that this contemplative state that I have been pursuing has been going on now for about five years. The need to find a deeper meaning to who I am, my purpose and how to move into the next dimension of my life has me on a journey of miraculous growth and evolution. I’ve sat in thought and mulled over these past couple of years and asked myself “When do you think that you started this transition” only because I was thinking the process was taking too long. It is, but it is okay. You see, in past times I have been able to get the lessons quicker but now it takes more time than usual to get to the root of who I am, helping me to bring out the core. If I could soak my soul into the very lessons that I am learning and have it to become sheer manifestation I would but it will take more than that. If my intentions became like air that one breathes without thought I will have tamed and mastered the beast that is me.

I have come to believe that the lessons are different this time because this is not a transition or move from one level to the next, this feels as if I am moving from one dimension to the next. My emotions are fluctuating in as much as I feel like I’m winning one day and maybe feeling the uncertainty that can make you feel overwhelmed the next. Having feelings that can make one seem immature or even lost at times can break open your spirit. We think that we know ourselves but who we are changes, grows, and evolves as we move through different terrain. Never having gone this way before there seems to be no real GPS except to say, “Now go this way” at the exact point of the turn. Who I have believed myself to be has been challenged to the point of asking “Who am I now”.  Currently when I look in the mirror I see a different me spiritually, mentally, and physically. I’m not willing to turn back though. I find the courage with each step to keep moving forward feeling like I am walking in the wilderness. The forest is thick with barely enough light, but I know it is coming soon so I keep moving. I am determined to let go and shed my old self but honestly, the emotionality of it all is vast. Holding up mirrors to oneself and having the courage to not look away as you discover the truths to the past and your now experience makes you long for the future. However, I am learning to love the contrast that is before me even though at times it can be painful. Soul opening to be exact, but I recognize the reasons for its nature to insist that I evolve. Growing pains aint’ got nothing on this but I’d wouldn’t change any of it for I know when it is over I will be “new”.

 

 

Letting Go


I’ve had my truck for 5 years. This last year was tough but the last 6 months was even tougher. My goal was to pay off my truck and wait at least six months before I purchased a new vehicle. I wanted to invest more money into my myself and my businesses but as life would have it, it would not turn out that way. I tried everything to keep her alive. I gave her a brand new start, an alternative life, cell replacement, gave her a brake, and even helped her stay warm when her thermometer went out. She had unusual sized feet and needed special shoes that weren’t carried in every tire store and would cost almost $150 each for the least expensive shoe. She was dying and I knew it but I tried to hold on at every cost to revive her.

Have you ever tried to hold on to something that you knew that you should let go of but you think that you can revive it, or make it better? I have on many occasions. Sometimes trying to hold on to things you make it worse. If I would’ve just traded my truck in when I saw that it was dying instead of spending all of that money to keep her alive I’d have more money in my bank account and could of possibly been further along in my endeavors. You would think that by now that I would know exactly when to let go, start over, or keep moving; but it has been a lesson that I’ve had to learn quite a few times. These past couple of years I’ve had to let go of a lot of things and people. It has all been to my betterment but it wasn’t easy at all. Today, I am happy and living my best life but I anticipate the next thing that I’ll have to let go of. What about you? How good are you about letting things go?

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Dr. Shawn & More on The Live Network


This Wednesday at 7pm EST on Conversations With Kai Mann I sit down for a conversation of truth and healing with Dr. Shawn. Dr. Shawn is an LPC and Ph.D. Dr. Shawn talks love and relationships from introspective perspective. She opens up about her own life. and her journey of growth which helps us to also understand ourselves.

Set a reminder for Wednesday, August 9th at 7pm EST so that you don’t miss one of the best shows this season on the Conversations With Kai Mann show.

Missed any of the shows from the previous seasons. Don’t fret! Go to http://www.watchthelivenetwork.com and click on pages from the menu, and then shows and you can watch any of the previous episodes from any of the shows on The Live Network.

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Before You Burn That Bridge


I’ve been thinking a lot about the truth and being courageously authentic. And, how it is so easy to walk away from the story because it’s the part that you don’t like that’s coming up. You see I had this thing I used to do when watching movies when I could tell that someone was about to get caught doing something that wasn’t necessarily wrong, but maybe you could see that they were about to walk into a trap that you believe that they should’ve inevitably seen and done something different. Normally I would stop watching, or fast forward but I’ve been in deep contemplation about how everything can be going so well in your life and then you are challenged to do something that you know will change the trajectory of your life, almost like a sharp turn to the left in the middle of going right with no warning.
It’s funny how when there is a part of your life or journey that needs to be shared or told that you hesitate to do it. Even when you know that it is essential to the journey because of the great possibility for healing; you, them, or someone else. But you know you are obligated to do it, so you do. You run back across that bridge for the last time to get that story that demands to be told because of the requirement for passage back across so that you can go to the next dimension but not before the Universe gives the authorization to burn that bridge in hopes of you never crossing it again and it never being able to hurt you again either.

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Sub-Posts


When we think of legacy we begin to think with a conscious state of mind. We start to think in different terms of what we want our legacy to look and feel like. Some years ago I began to consciously post. I posted videos and written posts, some with flyers attached of the things I was learning, questions I wanted to see what others thought, and experiences that I have had. As a thinker and someone who wants to better themselves on every level I consciously break apart experiences that I have. My goal is to see where I went wrong, and what I can do better in the next experience. For most of us our legacy will live on in our children’s children and when my legacy asks “What was I like,? What was I thinking? What was I learning? And who was I trying to be?” I believe that I will have left a wealthy electronic footprint of answers through everything that I do. My experiences are not just for people to see. I’m leaving a legacy for my children’s children to follow.

You see, I am an adult that recognize that I have missed out on a lot of wisdom. Much of it that I’ve had to learn myself through my own experiences. I realized a long time ago that even though I wasn’t taught a lot of things it was still “my” responsibility to learn. So after careful thought I begin to consciously post those lessons from experiences because maturity allow us to see a lesson or experience from a different level or consciousness as we grow and evolve and I wanted to be mature enough to share what I learned.
So, when I am not around to give answers to questions that my children’s children may have questions to I pray that I have left with them most of everything that they’ll need to know to walk in wisdom and knowledge.

When I recently was told “You seem to sub-post a lot” no, I’m pretty conscious about everything that I post and the way that I post it. My strategy is to put out everything I learn as I learn it. It’s a reference for myself and for my legacy.

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Entrepreneurship- When the worst happens


I had what some could call a major setback in business. For about two weeks I had something grow from minor to major. I kept my patience through it all. Not because I had to but because I wanted to. I was determined to have a great outcome no matter what the circumstances looked like. Near the end, just before they told me there was nothing further that could be done I said to myself “Sometimes things happen to help you move from good to great. This is your opportunity to take what you have left and rebuild it into something better.” I did just that. Still not completed but it ‘is’ better and I’m proud to say that I didn’t lose my cool. I worked through it and things actually turned out better than they were prior to what could’ve been a catastrophe if I had given in to it. Next time all seems to be going wrong in your world, stop for a moment and look for the opportunities; The ones that seem hidden below the pile of issues from whatever circumstances, yes, those. Look for the opportunity to make ‘better’ what has gone wrong in order to make it go right.
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Get Still Or Be Made To


When it’s time to move forward and you won’t move your feet they will be moved for you.
In 2004, probably sooner but I wasn’t paying much attention, a series of events would happen to turn my life around. In 2005 I heard very clearly, leave this situation alone and do something different but sadly I did not. Because I would not adhere to the voice inside I would be made to sit down and take more than just a moment to redirect my life, but I would be made to take a physically, mentally, and spiritually painful hard look at my life. Looking myself in the mirror was difficult but necessary. Seeing some of the decisions I had made at face value made me grieve for what could’ve been. The decision to place misdirected energy into things and people used to distract me from my purpose was disheartening. A very unyielding time in my life served up an order of “Make life-altering Decisions or be stuck in a cycle of unproductive fruit” kinda like that fig tree Jesus cursed. I decided to change and give energy to things that matter and would help me to move in life abundantly and progressively. If you never take the time to get still and not only evaluate where you’ve been but also where you’re going; you’ll be made to.
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