2017 A Year Of Reconciliation


When it is time to be alone everyone you know will disappear. Not in the definition of vanishing and that you are unsure of where they are, or that you yourself didn’t have something to do with their disappearance but it will happen because it is time.  When it is time for you to take in account for the life that you have created you must reconcile the balances of deposits and withdrawals you have taken or given. There is a Divine space of Contemplation of what is, what was, and how it all has affected you, and the people who have walked in the same spaces with you. 2017 has been that year for me, a year of reconciliation. A year to reconcile or balance the accounts and transactions that I have made throughout the years.

The first step was reconciling the discrepancies and over 49 years there have been many. You see, when you reconcile a discrepancy it begins with the date a transaction was done. This relates to the stories we have told ourselves since the transactions, to account for and balance them. We may have reconciled it since that date with ourselves but if there was anyone else involved it must also be reconciled with them as well. When this happens the story usually changes because listening you now hear it from their perspective and can garner a full picture. This picture usually changes from what your limited vision has been to seeing a picture in its entirety. A 360 view. Now, seeing everything, you must come to grips with what you will do with the picture you now see.

As 2017 progressed I’ve been going over my life piece by piece. Dealing with one thing at a time; myself, my children, my family, my relationships, and friendships. What I feel as each part of my life has been called to be reconciled I’ve learned that I’ve walked in a space of what borders on selfishness and abandonment depending on the side of the road that I am walking and on what day. No matter the time or day, it is surely the time to be reconciled with all my past actions. The scales of life are now balanced, and the time of judgement is now due. This judgement I exact upon myself as the consequences of life bears down on me.  It bears down not in a fit of angry rage but of truth, and genuine conversations and thought. No malice or ill-will intended, the bearing down comes from wanting to feel lighter as I move into this next phase of life and try to understand the breadth of what is weighing me down. And without hesitation or apprehension I resist not the bearing down as I have demanded of my higher self to know and understand more, and this bearing down comes as a result of what has transpired.

The time has come for me to see with full vision how the other half has lived. While being in a state of what was deemed as “Saving myself” so that I could still be here to enjoy life with each of my pieces I believe that I detoured which left some to fend for themselves. As each piece would come to full view there became an overwhelming state of shame and guilt as I could see some of the devastation that was left behind. Although normal to feel guilt and shame, I knew too that in order to move forward it too was okay to let those feelings go, but not before apologizing for the past hurt, or what could have felt like betrayal, or disloyalty on my part.

It’s tough to stand at full attention, dropping ego to the floor, and at times your own feelings so that you can hold on to the weight of their feelings, and emotions while hearing their and your story from the place where they stood. What felt like unconditional love to me was that there has never been any judgement of me, to me, from their lips. Just stories of what happened on their journeys. They never held me in contempt or condemnation, never yelled, or spoke in a condescending tone: They just told me the story. I thank God for that because I didn’t want to be made to feel worse by them or by me for that matter. Sometimes when we make it about us we demand that they make us feel guilty, or more guilt so that we can bear the weight of what happened. There is little time nor energy for that. We have all been through something but the realization of it all is to continue to learn from, grow, and evolve those stories to make new and better ones. I cannot thank them enough for their handling of me in my mishandling of them.

As I continue to allow myself to be opened however it comes, I don’t feel gutted, but I can speak with honesty and saying that sometimes as I see me at some stages of life, I don’t like me.  I don’t like the me that left in the manner in which I did. I don’t like the me that detoured from the spontaneity of life and checked out on the people that mattered. I know that I didn’t do it on purpose, and I know that I did it with limited knowledge, sight, and vision but I do wish that I had done it differently. But even so, when I think about that statement I know that if I had, I wouldn’t be the same person that I am now, having the same experiences that I am now and who’s to say that they would’ve been better or worse. This is life. The one that I chose, and I believe that I have the capacity to live it and that is what I am going to do. So, I continue to allow self to be opened, taught, displayed, grown, evolved, and ultimately transfigured because one thing that I am sure of is that this ‘is’ what I put here to do.

 

 

 

 

Red Pill or Blue


Today, be mindful that you get to choose the red pill or the blue.

Every morning that you wake you get a choice. You get to choose if you’ll unplug from the matrix, walk into your Divine Purpose, and be guided by Divine Wisdom and Knowledge. Or, take the blue pill and remain the same. It’s more than just staying #woke it’s about allowing yourself to walk in the Full Knowledge of this world, your Purpose, and your Power.

Many of us decide to take the distractions of this world over taking the red pill every morning because it allows us to stay the same and not have to work to change, grow, and ultimately evolve. I mean, who wants to be responsible to change their life in the most impactful and effective ways and possibly change the lives of others right? Most of the people we know take the same blue pill anyway, so if I stay the same I don’t have to worry about being different. I can be relatable because we’re talking about the same things, we’re reading the same things, and we’re watching the same things and having the same mindless experiences. I don’t have to worry about carrying the weight of the world (knowledge) by myself and not have anything new to talk about or anyone to talk to. We all know that it’s more than just about being a better entrepreneur, author, producer, marketer, or person for that matter. It’s about taking the responsibility of ‘self’ to a whole other dimension and dedicating your life to achieving the highest level of ‘self’ that you can achieve. The greatest part of this is intentionally letting go (unplugging) from the distractions that keep us ‘sleep’. Distractions like racism, sexism, judgment, separatism, and the mindlessness activities that keep us in a perpetual loop of ‘being stuck’. We have a responsibility to ourselves and to others to evolve to our ‘higher’ selves and be greater so that the world can ultimately be greater but when we continuously choose the blue pill we make that harder each and every day.

Today, which pill will you choose? The red or the blue.

#redpill #bluepill #consciousness#mindfulness #evolve #mindhack #racism#judgment #sexism #knowledgeispower#wisdom #unplug #higherself #selflove#staywoke

Letting Go


I’ve had my truck for 5 years. This last year was tough but the last 6 months was even tougher. My goal was to pay off my truck and wait at least six months before I purchased a new vehicle. I wanted to invest more money into my myself and my businesses but as life would have it, it would not turn out that way. I tried everything to keep her alive. I gave her a brand new start, an alternative life, cell replacement, gave her a brake, and even helped her stay warm when her thermometer went out. She had unusual sized feet and needed special shoes that weren’t carried in every tire store and would cost almost $150 each for the least expensive shoe. She was dying and I knew it but I tried to hold on at every cost to revive her.

Have you ever tried to hold on to something that you knew that you should let go of but you think that you can revive it, or make it better? I have on many occasions. Sometimes trying to hold on to things you make it worse. If I would’ve just traded my truck in when I saw that it was dying instead of spending all of that money to keep her alive I’d have more money in my bank account and could of possibly been further along in my endeavors. You would think that by now that I would know exactly when to let go, start over, or keep moving; but it has been a lesson that I’ve had to learn quite a few times. These past couple of years I’ve had to let go of a lot of things and people. It has all been to my betterment but it wasn’t easy at all. Today, I am happy and living my best life but I anticipate the next thing that I’ll have to let go of. What about you? How good are you about letting things go?

#lettinggo #lifehack #growthmindset #growth #selflove #selfequity #selfexpression #selfworth#selfinvestment #business #entrepreneur #businessman #businesswoman #womeninbusiness

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Conversations With Kai Mann- Bre Nicole J


on Dec 14, 2016

At a young age she has already survived domestic abuse and built a platform around it. She is the founder of insidethegirlsroom.com and Saving Our Sisters. Bre Nicole J is a young entrepreneur in the making. This young woman takes accountability for her life and takes charge. Watch tonight as we break down life from the perspective of a young mogul in the making on Conversations With Kai Mann

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Editing by: Lenderrick Jones [Focus One Entertainment]
Music By: Arnav Sristava
Song: King’s Castle

Creative Director: Yahminah McIntosh
Producer: Kai Mann

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Entrepreneurship- When the worst happens


I had what some could call a major setback in business. For about two weeks I had something grow from minor to major. I kept my patience through it all. Not because I had to but because I wanted to. I was determined to have a great outcome no matter what the circumstances looked like. Near the end, just before they told me there was nothing further that could be done I said to myself “Sometimes things happen to help you move from good to great. This is your opportunity to take what you have left and rebuild it into something better.” I did just that. Still not completed but it ‘is’ better and I’m proud to say that I didn’t lose my cool. I worked through it and things actually turned out better than they were prior to what could’ve been a catastrophe if I had given in to it. Next time all seems to be going wrong in your world, stop for a moment and look for the opportunities; The ones that seem hidden below the pile of issues from whatever circumstances, yes, those. Look for the opportunity to make ‘better’ what has gone wrong in order to make it go right.

Music: audio blocks
#business #womeninbusiness #meninbusiness #entrepreneur #entrepreneurship #branding#businesstips #strategy #businessstrategy #lifestrategy

Entrepreneurship- When the worst happens


I had what some could call a major setback in business. For about two weeks I had something grow from minor to major. I kept my patience through it all. Not because I had to but because I wanted to. I was determined to have a great outcome no matter what the circumstances looked like. Near the end, just before they told me there was nothing further that could be done I said to myself “Sometimes things happen to help you move from good to great. This is your opportunity to take what you have left and rebuild it into something better.” I did just that. Still not completed but it ‘is’ better and I’m proud to say that I didn’t lose my cool. I worked through it and things actually turned out better than they were prior to what could’ve been a catastrophe if I had given in to it. Next time all seems to be going wrong in your world, stop for a moment and look for the opportunities; The ones that seem hidden below the pile of issues from whatever circumstances, yes, those. Look for the opportunity to make ‘better’ what has gone wrong in order to make it go right.
Music: audio blocks
#business #womeninbusiness #meninbusiness #entrepreneur #entrepreneurship #branding #businesstips #strategy #businessstrategy #lifestrategy

Aligning Yourself In Business- (Business Alignment)


Alignment: a state of agreement or cooperation among persons, groups, nations, etc., with a common cause or viewpoint. A Business alignment is a collective effort that requires the intellectual contribution of all parties within the partnership.

Quick Tip:
“Aligning yourself with the right people will accelerate your process, project, brand, or business. The collaborative efforts of individual gifts enriches a partnership. Everyone who looks busy isn’t always busy. If you align yourself with people that you have to tell what to do and they bring nothing to the table but money they are an investor, not a partner. Partners get down in the mud with you. Seek to work with people that have strengths in areas where yours are Under-developed, and remember that Investors rarely “do” anything. Investors only put their money in because they believe in you or your vision. Being in alignment brings peace, growth, and stability to the partnership, the work, and the outcome. Get aligned!
#alignment #partnership #business #collaborations #businesstip #entrepreneur #brands #projects #investors