Self Awareness- Carrying Past Hurts


Self-awareness begins with taking a deep, hard, long look at who you are from the inside out. It’s also about taking the time to know those things that have hurt you, shamed you, made you feel guilty, and understand the pain that you may still carry from those issues. When we don’t take the time to heal those past hurts we carry them as residuals to every place we go. Have you ever walked into a room and immediately felt like you didn’t belong? Not because the people weren’t like you but because you felt some type of low self-esteem. Sometimes it’s because we haven’t cleared up those negative energies that won’t allow us to feel like we’re worthy of the blessings that we have entered into. When we feel unworthy we walk in with our heads hanging down, or with nervous energy, anxiety, or just plain ole’ doubt or fear. In order to build your confidence, take the time to go through your past hurts, pains, shames, fears, and doubts with a fine tooth comb. Recognize them for what they were, understand why they happened, how you feel about them and begin to work through them so that you can move past them. It is imperative to work on these issues to help you the individual, but to also have a life-long brand that your self esteem and character can keep. If you don’t, trust me it will continue to affect how you walk into ‘any’ room, especially the ones you’ve got clearance to be in.
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InkMann Press–The Big Leap


InkMann Press—The Big Leap

Dare to declare who you are. It is not far from the shores of silence to the boundaries of speech. The path is not long, but the way is deep. You must not only walk there, you must be prepared to leap.

Hildegard Von Bingen

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This quote resonates soul deep within me. About a year and a half ago I began to feel like I had this hole inside of me that was profound but that there was this boulder that encompassed the width of it. I couldn’t figure out how to remove the boulder. I knew there was something significant that I had to do and I had to do it now. For if I did not, I was to remain forever stuck. I began to look at my life from the view in which I could see it and although I couldn’t see much, I knew that there was more that life had to offer. Even still there were some effects that I had to remove. It wasn’t as if the life I had was bad. It was good: but I knew that the door had opened to something great. And, if I didn’t step outside that door I would risk everything that I had done up until that point. I decided to leap but before I could, I had to prepare myself first.

When I was in high school I ran track and one of my categories was the long jump. I know that the technique when doing the long jump, the jump itself is only part of the process. So, in preparing to take that leap I knew there were some issues I had to clean up to maximize my distance based on my ability to increase my takeoff speed. I knew the distance between where I was and where I was going was great and I needed the gain of momentum to ensure that I would clear the landing and make it to the other side.

The process or preparation for the jump has been long and arduous. It has been one of soul searching, clearing away of old patterns, and strengthening new ones. The level I was on seem to pale in comparison to where I was going but God had given me a guide. My guide would help me see the path when I couldn’t see where to start. She gave me techniques and drilled me with every ounce of fervor in her being. She coached me into submission and at times I would not like her for it but I knew that I had an obligation to my life to step forward. Often it would give the impression that the runway had moved making it hard to know where to takeoff. I surmised that I was still not ready. I didn’t realize how unprepared I had been for the jump. The exercises were long and grueling but necessary. For some time, it would seem like my feet wanted to move but it was clear they were not ready. The hardest observation in life is wanting to be some place other than where you are but know that you lack the character, stamina, and experience to be anywhere else.

It’s been a year and half and all of the training, technique and preparation is paying off. The distance between where I am and where I want to be is closer than ever. There are still some circuits and drills I am still running but I feel better about the leap and am sure that I can make it.

Who Are You


Who are you

Sometimes I lose

it

the binds have

stretched to

their limits

And everything

spills over

When the weight

sometimes

get a little

too low

and I can’t straighten my

knees

they’ve already

buckled

~Kai Mann © 2014

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