I am A Seeker


Just a few facts about the nature of who I am so that you may better understand me, my posts, my actions, or lack of action in some cases.
I am a seeker. I seek truth and a deeper meaning to life through spirituality. I don’t mind telling my truth and I am anything but superficial about it. If I am wrong, I never have a problem saying that I am, apologizing and trying to effect change to move forward from that wrong. I can be a loner at times as I truly prefer deeper conversation and stimulation, however that does not mean that I don’t like to laugh. As a matter of fact, I can be really silly at times. I don’t mind confrontation as I know it to be a way of growth and change if we are to do so especially when done correctly. If you’ve been a part of my social sphere for at least 3 or more years you’ll notice that I have been in a constant state of change and transformation. I am committed to a life of transformation; dying, resurrecting, and regenerating. It is a part of who I am as a person, I came into this world this way and I tend to at times be obsessive about that change and transformation especially in times of feeling stuck. So, balance is always important to me. My posts somewhat strategic in nature are always designed to inspire thought and self love, more so to get us to think more about our own power and nature and truly love who we are. I also try to inspire others to keep going. It is my way of having a closer connection with others who are seeking the same but may need some confirmation, support or empowerment. There are parts of me that some people may not like as I can come of self centered but I am not. (I used to come off as self-righteous and I was.) However, I love people and I’m most interested in their growth. Sometimes who I am can come off as cold or emotionless because I am severely focused and at times that leaves no room for much else but that which I am focused upon. It is never my intention to make anyone else feel like they don’t matter but I border on obsessive when I am trying to accomplish something. On the flip side of things I am not afraid of the darker side of life. I understand the yin and yang of life, so I have the ability to examine and explore those parts of me, others, and different forms of spirituality to get a better understanding of life. (This part of me is newly recognized. I used to be afraid, something that had to do with religion) I understand that everything in life is not always good or bad in which the law of duality explains. And that life isn’t always on the up, as the law of rhythm states that the pendulum swings both ways. We must be able to deal with both sides of the swing. But, I have always had a great need to work, walk, and delve into the things of the spirit that represent consciousness to a higher level. I am always looking to learn more. I seek knowledge wherever I can find it to help me tap into my higher self because I believe there is always more. I constantly challenge myself and others to look at ourselves in a way that encourages and promote self love, self growth and self-evolution whatever that may mean for each of us. For me this has caused me to transform at different periods during life, leaving some to know a different Kai that may no longer exist. But my posts pretty much say it all. If you’d like to know more I’m always available but not through inbox, messenger or DM’s. I’m not hard to find though. #transformation#transmutation #inspiration #seeker #seekerforlife#truth #lawofduality #lawofrhythm #universallaws#selflove #selfgrowth #selfevolution

Get Lost


I’ve often found it hard to fathom when people say “Ain’t nothing changed.” I wonder why they take pride in that.  And if nothing’s changed wouldn’t that be apparent and no need to speak on it. So, obviously something has changed but in order to not be different we are encouraged to stay the same. Something about feeling different from the pack will make some denounce that change however good it is. As I’ve been made cognizant of the many lives that I’ve lived, the many breathes I’ve been able to take, and the many dimensions, stages and levels of those dimensions I feel blessed to have changed. You see, I believe that as the outside changes the inside is what should change the most.

Walking through life in the thick of it sometimes we don’t see that change. But when we slow down and go to the observatory of our lives we can see that change in retrospection. An observation of life through the height and depth of it all can be an exhaustive feat but nevertheless, as we begin to explore we find that the valleys can be low, dragging self-esteem with it. And the mountains so high that the intensity to pull one’s self out of the valley hard.

Somewhere in this we begin to feel lost and unsure of who we are.  The way gives the appearance that we are walking aimlessly throughout specific paths of the journey. But, if we are to ponder our explorations we can see that there is such a blessing in getting lost a few times.  Even in the act of surviving the most traumatic issues along the way we can get lost in the experience of it all, yet even still a blessing can be seen if we look. I believe that although we may feel lost from time to time, we aren’t. I know for a fact that the Creator knows exactly where we are, and we can be confident in where we are growing in those times.

The reward to being lost is when you can see the beauty in finding ‘self’. The strength to move forward while encouraging one’s self through it all gives way to new paths to be seen. When we can envision it correctly we can discover the entrance into the very heart of who we are at that moment. The encouragement that we give to ourselves to look even deeper within allows us to find the strength of all that we possess.

A level of courage is needed when we attempt to find ourselves. Courage to be authentic and honest with one’s self. The type of courage that when used will be the only key that will open doors to other dimensions within you. Daring to discover new lands within yourself enables change to be seen when eyes are wide open, and mirrors held at eye level. It gives you the ability to count the many blessings of living long enough to have been able to see yourself change a number of times.

Lost, is just an illusion when we are unsure of the way. It is a place called ‘change’ that makes us be afraid and makes us believe that we are lost. It’s something about the scenery changing that creates anxiety. However, it is our inner world only that is changing, because our subconscious begins to walk us through uncharted paths that we’ve never journeyed before. It is that our inner most selves have called upon the depths of who we are to take control without our full knowledge of it.  That part of us that has been consistently preparing us for what’s next all of our lives. We are only now realizing that our inner most self is leading us to reach for something more because it is time. No matter who is with us or not, when we understand this we come to love that deeper level of self because it makes us dare to look for more.  It calls us to awaken to life. It calls us to go higher, to go toward the mountain top. Heed the call and to take the scenic view. Ascension is simply breathtaking as you reach for your zenith.

 

 

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Suicide or Legacy


The words “Legacy is Intentional” ran through the forefront of my mind like rushing water this morning. I thought about the legacy I almost didn’t leave, and the accomplishments made from a person who contemplated suicide almost daily from the age of 12 to about 28. I gave in to thoughts about the consequences my actions could’ve held if I had been successful. I ponder the businesses I’ve started since and the Interviews I’ve done with some of Michigan’s up and coming as well as seasoned thought leaders, speakers, authors, journalist, and artists. What if I hadn’t been here to share some of the stories that I have been privy to hear, the account of lives transformed from incarceration, death, spiritual defamation, travesty, sickness, mental health, and other such causes.

My intention twenty years ago to leave a different legacy not for myself but for those who would come behind me ultimately made me look at life in a different way. I had to transform my own thoughts to believe that I can be me, live in the world, and succeed. I understood that I am purposed in life to be who I am so that abundance or blessings that would occur could not be said to have been something that I had done; but the work of a higher power. In my platform I talk about things that others would call faults being gifts that were given to us and how we utilize those gifts or not, is the determining factor of our destiny. I pray that I have been a blessing in the lives of others and that I been of value to all the lives that I have touched. If not, I believe that I still have time left.

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InkMann Press–Paying Attention


Love, honor, and cherish the spaces that you find yourself in, for life can change rather quickly.–Kai Mann

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I have found myself in a space of take-it-all-in’edness. I know that’s not a word but it so describes the spirit I am in. I have been paying attention to what the Universe has given me privilege to partake in and to view from the seat of my own soul. Perceptions and perspectives have changed over the last twelve months allowing my spirit to open wide with transformative intentions. I would be lying if I said the entire twelve months I have gone willingly. You would have thought I would; I would’ve thought I would, but there were parts of me unwilling to open the eyes of my understanding to see past my own lids. Some things I fought against like a child holding on to its last days of childhood forbidding going into adulthood. That part of me has decreased today as the more adult me is able to talk the child into moving forward when the motion is necessary out of future pain or suffering.

 

You see, rarely do we understand that what we might feel now will not compare to what we’ll feel later if we do not move when the opportunity presents itself. If you’ve ever gotten the chance to live when others have not: or to witness life happen to someone else in a way that if misconstrued you’d get the rest of life  all wrong, then you knew that it was purpose. It was purpose that granted you access to see the view at the top of the mountain, to tell a story, to learn a lesson, or to help someone else. I thank God that I have been able to see and feel life from a different vantage point. A vantage point, that if I had not seen correctly, I would’ve missed the advantage.

 

For most of my life I hated to see people about to get into trouble, be in pain, or anything that could hurt them. I’d turn away. I couldn’t even watch a movie that I could feel the protagonist’s trouble before it happened and would get up to go do something so I wouldn’t have to watch that part of the movie. My DNA is programmed to want others to win and when it would look as if they weren’t I would turn my head away so as not to see them lose. One thing I had failed to realize was that I hated to see my own self lose. I’d turn my head away from me when I felt I was about to get into trouble, make a mistake, or be in pain just so I wouldn’t have to witness it.

 

Today what I have learned from that behavior was that the pre-warned feelings were giving me the opportunity to change course, correct my sail, or to just do something different. I hadn’t realized that my instincts were protecting me so I wouldn’t have to experience whatever trouble, mistake, or pain so drastically. Me diverting my attention or closing my eyes would cause the most intense pain because I’d still have to drive right through it even with eyes wide shut making the devastation much worse.

 

On a different street but in the same neighborhood I too realized that shying away from the experiences of others would leave me hallow. To live life as a shell of a person who lacked depth because she had denied herself the privilege of experiencing life through the eyes of another. I can’t say that it has been easy but the connections I have made just opening myself up to experiencing my own life, as well as the lives of others, has added value to my soul. No longer will I allow myself to miss out on the moments for fear that they may turn ugly, when all of life is so beautiful.

Conversations With Kai Mann


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Bio
As a writer and conversationalist she is both positive and purposeful. Her keen ability to provoke thought, trigger change and enlighten the lives of others has catapulted her to a literary and media success. Whether it’s in the form of a blog post or article, Facebook status or tweet, internet talk show or webseries, Kai Mann uses her platform to empower and educate followers around the world about the nature of self love, self growth, and the importance of self equity that leads to authentic change and infinite transformation.

 

Radical Transformation


Shifting isn’t always easy…

It is not easy to change

you have to be in agreement

with it

in order

to do so

otherwise it’s a fight

to the death

but even when you’re in

agreement

sometimes the nakedness

of the change

effects you like cool air

when you’re not feeling

warm & fuzzy

but you want to

be naked

because you know

that the level of

transformation

you’re looking to get

takes radical

change

and a willingness

to be open

and

naked

when it doesn’t feel

so comfortable

Empire ~ Lucious Lyon


Lucious Lyon

 

I think that although Lucious truly hates that his son Jamal is gay, he does love him in his own way. Lucious is ashamed of Jamal and he thinks he’s being hard on him for a reason. I believe that he’s been trying to toughen him up from the first time he saw him in those heels and he put Jamal in the trash. His battle with Jamal last Wednesday on Empire showed it. He was battling Jamal, not really over a song but because he knows how tough the world is going to be on his son and being good or talented is not enough. Lucious is trying to make him tougher. Who better than your father to be the toughest on you so that when you’re out in the world you’ll be able to say “That’s all you got!”

(this is beautiful…watch below)

Now, I’m not advocating or agreeing that Lucious is right for the treatment of his gay son but I’ve learned to not judge people’s parenting skills since most of the time I’m a bit sketchy about my own. All I’m saying is that’s what I believe he’s doing. I’ve seen someone say that they refuse to watch Empire and called it Ratchet. They stated it so because they were Christian  and I was kind of offended being someone who prides themselves on reading the word and to be honest, the Bible has the most ratchet stories in it if I might add: but most of us still read the Bible because we know that in the end someone gets delivered. Now, I’m not saying that on Empire someone’s going to be delivered but I do see where weekly the characters on the show are evolving. What they are evolving into is different altogether but I think this show works because Lee Daniels has found a dialogue of relatability within the black community. No, I’m not saying that Empire is every person in the black community’s story but surely if I can watch this story unfold I might be able to understand some people in the community.  We tend to denigrate things before we’ve had a chance to see the morality in mortals. We don’t really believe that God can change people helping them to extend themselves, grow, and evolve. There can be no light without darkness and sometimes it’s almost as if we are afraid to look at the dark. How will we ever be able to understand the magnitude of the light if we’re too afraid to look at the dark.

I think it’s time to tell our own stories. We need new ones anyway.

If you watch Empire on Fox, tell me what you think about the show, who’s your favorite character, and what you think about this blog post. ©2015 Kai Mann #KaiologyInk #Kaism #Kai2pointO

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Let it Rain


{My interpretation}

If he told us to be fruitful

and multiply

he must’ve put seed down

in us in order to do so

when the seed gets water

it is destiny revealed

but until that it is

destiny concealed

There are only two real seasons

seed time

or

harvest time

if your destiny hasn’t been manifested you are in

seed time

you have to die first

before you can bear fruit

I am not normal to the ground

I am in

if it didn’t grow naturally

then it had to be

planted

Did God plant me?

It’s not ordinary

it wouldn’t have happened

by itself

It normally wouldn’t grow

up in this type of

soil

But God says “I’m going to

force it to grow

that’s agriculture

But because God said

“Live”

He forced it to happen

God said “out of the

dry ground”

abuse

turmoil

pain

drugs

confusion

He forced it to happen

You have to understand that

you were planted

Before you had

a Bible

that sperm

out ran the rest

because you

were

planted

It was good that I have

been afflicted

had I not

I would not

know

that Glory of God

I didn’t like it

but I am better

for it

I couldn’t see my way out

cause I was planted

nothing buried

Don’t expect me to stay

buried

I have not been buried

I am planted in it

I may be planted here

but I ain’t staying here

I can’t do it because

I am gay

this is the way I hear it

if you want to know

Maybe if you heard it

like I did

you could understand

No weapon formed can

come against you

if you don’t mind

being different

He just watered my seed…

You can’t get blessed

because you don’t

obey

I have destiny

I have something

concealed in me

just through it out there

don’t judge

you’ll know who’s

got it by the

reaction

wonder who I’d be if I

was watered

There is a responsibility

in every blessing

the word is the water

that’s why it hasn’t

grown

Been trying to figure out

what’s wrong

Now comes the trauma

that the water

brings

the seed has no pain

there’s got to be some

discomfort

watering the seed

is trauma

to the soul

Growth is traumatic

I knew this

but I was hoping

it wasn’t so

you get watered

through exposure

If I was exposed to

what I could

be

I’ll never be the same

again

watering makes you make

changes

you can be watered

by opportunity

it will water

your destiny

exposed.

One man plants

another man waters

God gives the increase

you can’t get the finished

product

without the process

We are going to have some

stories to tell

when we get

there

I don’t owe anybody but

God

water each other

we have to serve

each other

give and it shall be

given to you

pressed down

&

shakin’

together

getting to the next level

ain’t easy

you have to really

have faith

I know this is about

growth

but you’re right

I’m stretching

it hurts to grow

it alienates you

you don’t fit in

people like you

as long as you fit

their standard

but when you outgrow

their environment

they don’t like you

“Goodbye!”

you ought to change too

you use different tools

for seed time

and harvest time

sowing equals weeping

bearing precious seeds

doubtless

you can’t have no doubt

you ca’t have ‘any’ doubt

you got to believe this

for yourself

I was created for this

and I don’t even know

what this iS

I believe it

It is your faith

not anyone else’s

I got to get the right

tools

faith, to bring it in

if I got the faith for it

but I can still bring it

in

No weapon formed against me

shall be able to prosper

I got faith for it

for 2015, I got faith

for it

I gotta “Rejoice”

you might sow it in tears

but you’ll reap in

Joy

can’t be miserable

I gotta snatch me

some joy

This is my NOW

Don’t work where I have not

given you permission

work in the area you’re

permitted

If it doesn’t bother you

anymore

that’s how you

know you’re coming

to the end

of a ‘thing’

it’s time for me to

offer it up

I don’t feel sorry for

myself

I offer it up

work it out

you cannot achieve

the promise

without the

process

the process brings you

to the promise

water what works in your life

Leave those dead bones

alone

you’re coming to a

Season

of

Greatness

Water what’s Divine

in you

Don’t waste the water

water what’s good

what’s just

what’s pure

what’s fruitful

Always look up

Don’t see the living

amongst the dead

God’s going to change me…

 

******KaiologyInk*****  “That’s what I heard” #Kaism #Kai2pointO #KaiologyInk

Author Feature ~ Victor ‘Billione’ Walker


Tell us your favorite book, but don’t tell us the name of the book until

the end of the blog post.

 

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When I read those words, something in me shook uncontrollably until I fell

dramatically onto the floor of my apartment in Ypsilanti, Michigan. I

remember that day. No one was there but me, but it felt as if my ancestors

were with me, and had delivered a love note to me, passed down through the

ages that said I was not unusual.

 

I am straight forward, demanding, and direct. However, I am also shy,

observant and compassionate. I am a great number of complex things, but

most of all, I recognize that I, just like everyone I know, have been

enacting a story that if not changed will destroy the earth.

 

No one told me this; I felt it from the moment I was born. Much like the

narrator of this book, I sought a teacher who could help me make sense of

that hum of culture’s mythology in my ear. I have been held captive by this

mythology and have always been looking for a way out.

 

From this book, I learned that I no longer have to be at war with the

earth, my community, or myself. This book was given to me as a gift from a

close friend. In fact, many of the most powerful books I’ve read were given

to me as gifts, suggesting to me they have come down from the ages and

chose me¾ but I digress.

 

What would you say if I told you a telepathic gorilla changed the way I saw

the world and everything with it? You would call me crazy, I’m sure.

However, I indeed learned that all things in the world are necessary and

dependent on each other and if humans continue to destroy everything we

touch, there will be no hope for any of us.

 

The only way I can describe my favorite book is to tell you that the

journey is an individual experience that will either anger you or liberate

you. There is no way to read it and rest in the gray area: Either you will

love it or you will hate it, but you will feel passionate either way.

 

I’ve read it at least 10 times and find it to be moving every time. It has

reshaped my thinking and helped me evolve hoe I approach issues in my life.

If you ever want to truly get into my head and see how I think and what

motivates me, read this book and embark on a path that changes everyone

that steps foot on it.

 

The author is Daniel Quinn and my favorite book is entitled Ishmael.

 

Author: Victor ‘Billione’ Walker

Twitter: @Billione

Facebook: getbillione

Website: http://getbillione.com

Book: No Tea No Shade

No Tea No Shade