Shadow Work

Stepping into my own shadow relinquishing ways of old that no longer serve me. Hard but necessary. Allowing time to pass as patience sets in to give rise to a new day. Tripping but not falling. Going deeper but never stalling or failing to seek deeper meaning of self. Wanting to understand the shadow that lurks beneath I go INto me. Taking a look to see what I can see, opening up further to see all of me. I step into my shadow… Side.

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Why Astrology is Important

Astrology is the blueprint to your life, the architectural design of who you are by way of your characteristics, personality and moods, astrology helps you to become aware of who you are, where you are, where you’re going, and your purpose within this life. Want to know more about who you are or your purpose get your Natal chart at or

Book References:
The Secret Language of Astrology, Roy Gilette

The Only Astrology Book You’ll Ever Need, Joanna Martine Wolfolk

The Beginner’s Guide to Astrology

The Astrology of You and Me: How to Understand and Improve Every Relationship in Your Life

Signs and Symbol Source Book.

Transforming Light Into Darkness

When i let go my spirit flies. I search for the light but not until i walk through the night. Eyes wide open i speak into the darkness open up my soul and stretch forth that from within. Nothing to see but visions of earth drinking up the water. Thirst not quenched as the air breathes and the fire is blown. Winds calm from north to south and the horn spreads from east to west. Transforming light into darkness and darkness into light. Bright, warm night comforting the soul as i am found the sting from the corner left untouched. Nothing passes to the light without going through the dark.| The Kaiologist

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Wake Up Be Born

Distinctively not the same since the expressions of experience of that time, that space, closed like a womb ready for birth. Creating lands between ears, leaving tracks to trails left so long ago hoping footprints would follow the crumbs for bread or get nourished from the cord left deep in utero. Waiting patiently. Waiting patiently for the darkness to come so the light could be found where eye could be open to see into the recent distance. Future untold. Future untold drawing life from the conduit developing here from there. Potent lines mark memories from ancestors unconsciously lodging within wisdom of cells and dna. Wake up, be born. Wake up, be born from the darkness into light. |The Kaiologist

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“Menopause v.s Masculine Identity”

For at least ten years I have been having pre-menopausal symptoms like hot flashes and night sweats. In the beginning I told myself not to complain because there was nothing that I could do about it and that I didn’t know how long it would last so there was no point in doing so. Some years were better than others and recently they have seemed to have gotten a bit worse. I asked myself if I thought I were nearing the end and maybe that was the reason or maybe I could contribute it to some food, spices or article of clothing that I was wearing. Let’s just say that I am still trying to find the culprit.

In 2018 I began to notice even more changes but these were not the usual hot flashes or night sweats. No, these changes were mental changes. Okay, so let me give you a bit of background on me. I am what you could call androgynous with a bit of masculine identity or maybe I should say tendencies. To be honest, I don’t go by a label and think myself more of a spirit than a body however, I am in one. I neither think of myself as female or male, I just am. Okay, so you know that part.

Earlier in the conversation I stated that I have masculine tendencies. Although I do not assign a label to myself I have identified more with masculinity than I have with femininity. Identification has nothing to do with gender, so yes, I do know that my spirit is enclosed within a female body. Tell that to my mind and how I relate though.

Now, having said all of that and back to what we are now in “Full BLOWN” menopause the body and its changes are effecting me mentally. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not going crazy, I just feel really weird. The feminine hormones that are now at play have me questioning almost everything from the way I walk, the way I talk, and how I just ‘be’ in this world. My spirit wants to just be, my mind is screaming “masculinity”, and menopause is screaming “WOMAN”! Now, I am wise enough to know that at this phase of my life there is something more at work. There is a journey in progress and I intend to take full use of all the different experiences, lessons and stages involved to assist me in getting to the other side of this. However, I feel like an onion being peeled and with each layer there is more than just something to discover but something anew that unfolds within the mind, body and soul experience. It’s the unlearning, the unbecoming, and the unknown that whisks me through a maze of becoming something different. Something I’ve never been before. It is the willingness that I have given into so that I can allow the process to work in my favor. The feelings are overwhelming at times, pulling me here and there but allowing the flow so as not to go against the grain and thwart the process of transformation. I know it to be one of transformation as I watch myself morph into the person that I do not know but overstand that it is best, better than I will have ever been before and something that will take me into eternity. I mean, that is what we are here to do, right?

Are you or someone you know going through Menopause? If so, leave us a comment about your experience and some of your natural orholistic tips and tricks that you use to assist you with some of the symptoms for relief.

A Trip Back In Time

My trip to Florida was a great end to the year of 2018. I traveled back to my roots. Went to my old high school and the school where my mother was an office secretary. I visited with some people I hadn’t seen in over 20 years and loved on family and close friends. The full videos will be posted on my YouTube channel on the 31st. Be sure to check em’ out!