“Sometimes I make a mess but sometimes I leave it there and it actually turns out better. Simple…what a statement.”
This is an experience. Have you ever wondered what it would be like to be somebody else? I have. Come with me. Now, I’m not going to tell you what to see, how to think or how to be. But, I’ll tell you how to get the best out of this experience before going any further go to the YouTube channel Neo-Soul Mix| “Play Fight ” on YouTube (of course now you can just press the play button above before you get into this.)
One thing about me is that I write how I talk so I hope that you can enjoy this if not, maybe it’s not for you and if not we both okay if you feel you need to move along. I totally understand that. We all don’t see eye to eye but if you feel me please leave me some kind of acknowledgement that you understand and perhaps feel the same.
Sometimes when I’m chilling I sit down and think and when I get real deep in thought the first thing I do is grab a pen and pad. I sit at my own feet to see what it is that I have to say. It doesn’t all flow consecutively but the higher self always gives you something that you can use and if you allow yourself, you’ll learn quite a bit. So I just write whatever my higher self thinks, questions, or just make statements about and I can most times feel an opening in my chest where wind rushes in and I have to take a deep breath.
Here goes…
It is so true that the things you truly want out of life you can have. I had been wanting to hear some music, the king of music that’s where I am at in my life. I kept thinking about that. I wanted to hear that kind of music and today I find this.
My heart overflows at some of the most small things to some, but it’s amazing to me. It’s amazing to be in your house with family, or by yourself and you’re doing one of your favorite things to do. I’m literally dancing in my kitchen while I’m cooking. It’s not like it’s real big but it’s so cool. I haven’t danced in over 6 years. Well, that one time we did but not like I used when I danced by myself. Those who really know me know that I love to dance. When you become more aligned with the Universe, you recognize the small things. The older I get I just want to be whole. For me that’s just balance. The balance between me dancing and writing and now I’m dancing, cooking and writing. That’s beautiful. What a balancing act. This is more than that. It is a spiritual orgasm.
Can we just talk? Can we be open?
We gotta start letting people be who they are. We, individual but we copies.
When you get to a certain age in your life ( And you’re the only one to know when that it is.) but you just want what some call “peace”. I just want wholeness.
For me that looks like being able to be home and still take care of all my responsibilities, being able to listen to music or dance when I want. I want to love my woman, travel, laugh, eat , exercise, do yoga, pray, meditate, see my family, play with my greats and grandbabies and enjoy life. And I want everybody else to be able to do it too. You ever find yourself coming back to where you were or where you were when you were probably your most authentic? I’m excited to see how that turns out. I am not lying, sometimes I feel like I’m living life in reverse and that’s not a bad thing. Sometimes you have to go back to find your center.
I’m sitting at my desk. I finished dinner before this last paragraph. I love thinking that it can be orgasmic to me especially when I’m able to keep up writing while doing it…
Have you been paying attention to the words in the songs on the playlist? It’s Dope isn’t it.
Want to know what’s funny? My Sun is sleep in the living room and so is Bosley. I have my wireless headphones on while dancing and cooking. That is so freeing. I hope other people are doing things that make them feel free. I think when people feel free, they feel so good. That kind of feel good that you don’t get from a lot of things so you want it to last, to keep it and you know that the only way to do that is when everybody feels free.
I need to find this 1st song. Like who is this? What’s her YouTube channel?
I did all of that cooking and I’m not hungry anymore.
You know what I think? I think that we only see each other when we’re up or on our way up. But that whole ‘down’ thing ain’t always televised. I wonder if we want help. Or is it that we’re embarrassed. I always liken it to school because each level has a bottom and a top, and we all have to go to all the levels. Even if we skip them we still gotta come back.
You ever been waiting on someone who was waiting to ascend?
Why if we all know that everybody goes through things that we’re not more open about it when we are?
Balance is the equal amount of each side. Positive and negative. That doesn’t equate to 50 it’s to 100, like 20/80, 80/20, 75/25, 25/75. It’s not always 50/50.
(I change the playlist to the one below)
My Food is so good y’all. Oh my gawd. Dayum, this beat is so hard. I don’t know what they’re sayin but it is enticing freedom. Pulling it out of you gently even though it’s hard, the edges are smooth.
I had to stop and listen to the music even though at first I didn’t know what she was saying then I recognized the music. I love her music. Different types of music makes you think different things. I like music that entices thought from the brain. I love love music or romance, “Love Songs” that make sense. There can’t be no toxicity. I listen to some of the love songs from my earlier life and think, “they promoted some dumb shit.” When I was watching the Billie Holiday movie the other day and the Song “Ain’t nobody’s business if I do”, came on, I thought “I want us to not need music like that no more.” Then I was reminded that the environment begins to shed itself of toxicity. Isn’t that what getting healthy is all about?
Someone has to be brave enough to do it.
Kai
Kai Mann 